Anyways, things are going well. I have decided to change my major from Business management to Hospitality management with a track in Theme park Management. I have a feeling that this was not the right thing to do because I keep on reading that the position I want mostly requires a business degree. Oh well, I could always double major. I miss my old friends that are all in tall. but I have met some amazing people in the Orlando area.
Believe or not, I am still in a relationship with Ryin (over 2 years). Things are going as good as they can get, but theres still a part of me that doesn't understand why. I just want to be left alone sometimes, and focus on school and friends. My mind always images what it would be like not being with him, and it's scary. I don't know, I mean I love him, but I feel like he's holding me back. All I know is that after him, I will not date anyone, or probably speak to a boy for a long time:)
Well, That's it for now. I need to update this thing for frequently.
Well, it's finally happening, I'm moving to orlando in the next 2 weeks, and I'm so excited. I will be living with Ryin for 3 months, then my apartment opens on aug. 18th. The only problem is I need a third roommate. Anyone interested? Well, besides that, Ryin and mine one year is coming up next month. I can not believe it's been one year already. One year of laughter, saddiness, happiness, and depression. This relationship has it all. lol. With all the up's and down's, I still love Ryin more then anyone in the world. I am afraid that this feeling will never go away (no matter who I'm with). The future is too difficult to think about. Oh, by the way, Kingdom Hearts 2 is a kick ass game.
These couple of months have been very eventual. I got my apartment in Orlando; I am finally going to a four year University; and I am in love with a person who loves me more then life it's self. With all the up's, there are still downs. I am still the same insecure old Justin. I have done somethings to Ryin that were down right cold and hurtful. In the end of every situation, there has been a solution. I just wonder when he is going to say that he's had enough. I guess if you truly love someone, enough will never come. I just hope I can be the man that he deserves....
Well, nothing truly eventual has haven't since my last entry. School is going well for me, and I applied for UCF next fall. That's right I'm moving to Orlando this summer.
I can't believe it's almost been five months, and I'm still madly in love with you. I know you think that eventually I need to experience new people, and I agree with you to an extend, but I don't think that I could find anyone that I would love as much. I know you consider me the one, but if I am, why let me go so easily. Don't give me up for my sake. This is about us. I love you.
On a side-note, Madonna's much anticipated album "Confession on a Dancefloor" hits stores next Tuesday. It's hott!!!
I haven't updated a non-love entry in a long time. Things have been going well for me. I hate school but at least its incredibly easy, and its also nice to share some classes with Ryin. I miss my friends, but I have also developed a lot of new ones; a lot at work. Work is going well. I just worked a nine hour shift yesterday, and to my surprise, I enjoyed it. On another exciting note, Madonna's new single comes out October 17th. It's called Hung Up, and it's hott. The album "confessions on a Dancefloor" comes out November 15th, so everyone go and buy it. Well, that's about it. I have to go because to Ryins to play video games:-0 I shall talk to everyone another day. I love you Victoria, Katie, Aubrey, and Alex Stout. I love you Ryin.
This weekend rocked the house and possibly something else:-) As every day goes by, I realize how much I love you. How happy you make me feel. Being in this relationship has given me my first true love. After last night, I realized I'm not just in it for fun;I'm in it because I want to be, because you love me, and I love you. Thanks for everything.
Sat, Aug. 20th, 2005, 02:29 am
You know, I thought things could not get better. After tonight, I was proven wrong. No one in the world can stop me from being this happy. I love you:-)
Mon, Aug. 15th, 2005, 12:43 am
I feel sick. I wish you were hear to take care of me.
Mon, Aug. 8th, 2005, 02:03 am
Could it be that I'm in love with you:-)
Last night was a lot of fun. I am a great chef (I make a fine selection of mystery pudding. lol). Requiem in a dream (I think it was called that)was weirdest movie of all time. Never do drugs. lol. Time with Ryin last was great. I wish you got to spend the night because I love waking up next to you. Well, work tonight, then karaoke. Should be a fun night!. See ya.